Yesterday, I had an audition for a holiday musical here in Houston. There were 40 actors there vying for 9 parts. Yikers!
As we all milled around waiting to sing and read for the director, I realized that with the exception of one other woman, I was the oldest female there! And even though that realization was a little unexpected, I was happy because I very content being one of the oldest of the bunch. It just felt good because I wasn't competing with the myriad of 20 somethings there for the "young" ingenue-type parts.
And it was nice, because I was very comfortable being right where I was, right when I was, at just the age I was.
In a culture that endlessly praises youth, it felt good to be happy in my 37 year old skin! I got to read for a villainess character, which was super fun and wicked!
I don't know if I'll get cast, but as far as this post goes, that's not really the point.
I just wanted to say that it was rather sublime to feel fabulous "in the moment" of a situation that took me by surprise. The surprise being that there was absolutely no sense of longing to "go back" to an earlier, younger time. The wonder of the realization that "right now" is awesome!