Friday, January 01, 2010

New Year's Day Ponderings

Today we took down our indoor Christmas decorations, and it just looks so bare without our tree and the other bright lights up! While I'm feeling incredibly blessed to have had such a wonderful holiday season, I confess I'm feeling a little blue now that the glad noels and shining bells are coming to an end.

I'm really looking forward to seeing my mother-in-law soon! She and her RV will be arriving in Texas in about a week and a half or two, and I'm really looking forward to spending some time with her. She's a great mother-in-law, and I'm looking forward to some serious games of Yahtzee!

I'm ready to meet my baby/babies. We are just over halfway through our time sitting on the wait list, and I told Brian today that I'm just feeling so ready for our adoption to move forward! The waiting has been relatively easy for the first half, but I have a feeling that the second half will be harder.

I really want to spice things up on my blog! I've gotten away from the introspective writing that once made my blog more interesting (in my opinion!), and I want to get back to that. Even though my purpose for starting this blog was to have a place to express myself free from the judgment of my inner critic, I still find it hard to be as vulnerable as I want to be on my blog. I want to get over that in 2010!

I don't know if it's that I'm 35 now and something has shifted or what, but I'm feeling largely nonplussed about making unrealistic New Year's resolutions. There are a few things I'd like to accomplish this year, but I feel much more private about them than I typically would, sort of like they are personal treasures in my heart that I'm pondering with myself and with God, but I feel absolutely no need to shout them from the rooftops.

I watched the Florida State game today with Brian. It was so awesome to see Bobby Bowden go out with a WIN! What an amazing career he's had--57 years! He's in his 80s and looks so young! I think there is something so awesome about working at your dream job for all those years! I can completely understand why he didn't retire sooner. Who would want to quit one's dream job?

Speaking of dreams fulfilled, three years ago today, Brian proposed to me in La Jolla, CA, overlooking the Pacific Ocean. I'm so glad I married him!

On that note, I hope that each of you have had some dreams realized in 2009 and that 2010 will be a year full of hope, abundant blessings, and many dreams fulfilled!


The Moore Family said...

Happy New Year Tracy! Thanks for sharing your heart. Happy Engagement Anniversary... mine is the same :)

C said...

Happy New Year! I'm so very excited for you guys. I know this year is going to be an amazing and exciting one for you with the adoption and meeting your baby/babies!

J at said...

I feel the same way about my blog. That introspection is gone, and I don't know if I want to bring it back. I do, because I find it cathartic to open up and write my feelings. At the same time, there are things that are more private, and I don't want to share them all. I'm thinking some things will still go in the blog, but maybe I might want to start a journal for the more private stuff.

Regarding the resolutions, so much in your near future depends upon the arrival of your baby/ies, so it's hard to make big plans and work towards them. I hope you are able to accomplish all of your goals this year.